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Party of....2?

When you are 29 and have been single for as long as this girl, it takes some pep talks (to yourself) to prepare yourself to learn to start thinking for more then one person, that one person being yourself.

If you know me personally, you already know that I am a handful.  I am quirky, loud, over-analyzing, full of way too many thoughts, feelings and opinions, have an ever-present resting bitch face, and have only had to think for myself for, well, a really long time.

 Cue dating-

 Been out of this game for several years.  Then in the blink of an eye, I suddenly start dating one person, for several weeks, then that one person becomes my boyfriend (say WHAT!?), then all of a sudden I go into thinking- for- two- mode- what's his scheduled, what's mine? Do they clash?  When can we see each other, why does seeing each other have to be scheduled (because we live on opposite ends of LA and have opposing work schedules, ugh), we now share calendars via iPhone (I know... "vomit and dry heaving sounds", don't you love it?), I now have someone to go home to after a GNO, I start to think of trips, my Saturdays and Sundays are no longer just ME, (unless said work schedule takes one away, ugh), I want to plan double dates with my other dating friends, I want to tell stories of my childhood, we have inside jokes, we share with each other our personal interests, we watch movies and TV shows, we just hang out and do nothing, and I can kiss him any-time-I-want.

 I know.....I am that girl! Roll your eyes, roll them to the back of your head, throw up a little even.  I just said the cheesiest, relationshippy, most annoying things ever, I know because I would roll my very own eyes when I heard others say these things.

  I am NOW thinking for two!?  I never thought this day would come, and though I have complained for the past several months about how single I am, I never really thought it was the total end of the world to be single, because it's all I knew and I really had no hope.  No that's not a pity me statement- I have just seen my fair share of terrible situations and was scared to get into anything serious.  But then it happened and my instincts kicked in to start thinking for two.  I still have a lot to learn but so far, soooooooo good. :)

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