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ESFJ

So this weekend was a lot of news for me.  Hung with new people, saw new places, hell I even ate new kinds of foods that I don't generally eat, but I loved it.  I loved the new, I loved the people, and it was a great distraction from the conundrums of life, whether it be a disagreement with a  friend that is a constant cloud cover to stresses of every day life, to job stress, to LIFE, it was nice to "get away" from it all.  Something else I did though was take a Myers Briggs personality test- something I have not done since I was in college which I think is something every one SHOULD take in college, and then again once they have had some life experience for example, turning 30.

In short ESFJ is Extrovert, and my score for that was 60%, Sensing, 75%, Feeling, 85% and Judging was 70%.  In long I am a people person, I have a strong desire to be liked, I am dependable, I have a strong focus on the details of life, I need approval from others to feel good about myself, I am hurt by indifference, I have a hard time accepting a difficult truth about someone I care about, I am extremely good at reading others, I often change my manner to be more pleasing to whoever I am around, highly in tune to my emotional environment and attentive to both the feelings of others and perceptions others have of me...and the list.goes.on.


Let me tell you this- this personality stuff is INSANELY truth!  I learned so much about myself in 20 minutes.  It makes so much more sense, I have such a better outlook to things that I put myself down for i.e. needing to be liked, needing assurance and approval.  These are a few things that I felt to be a weakness but now that I read this, I see the positivity.  It's who I am and there are just going to be some personalities that don't mesh with that.  After taking this I felt the urge to send it to all my friends and family, but held back as I knew they would be like, WTF MISTY.  But I will probably do that eventually.

Is it normal to still be figuring things out when you're 30?  To still compare yourself to others your age (even when you know you absolutely shouldn't) to be easily swayed by things people you care about say to you even when you know you don't agree?  To worry about what they think?  I hope so because I still feel like I am figuring it out and I don't know what it takes to stop, but maybe that is just life.  A constant learning and swirling around and climbing to reach new heights.  Each decade you enter into a new learning zone.  20s for getting out on your own and starting to be an "adult", dating, deciding what you want in life.  I am 9 months into my 30th year and I still feel like I felt when I was 29 minus the small amount of depression and feels I got when I did actually turn 30.  I have SO MUCH more learning to do.  I guess that is the point.  It is life.  But damn is it frustrating sometimes.

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